Michael, apparently, is at the end of his estrogen tolerance rope. He has been singing songs about the incomprehensibility of estrogen, and how women are just chemically crazy. I think its amusing, but I do see where he is coming from. (circumstantially, that is)

The Epic Tale: Mary&Jimmy. Difficult break up with Jer, tries to take things slow with Jimmy, doesnt really work, is 'dating'/oozing/studying greek with Jimmy for the past 6 weeks. UGH never mind. I dont feel like telling the story, you already know it basically, and you probably dont care.

Expedited Version: Mary wants to take things with J back to square one. J is confused, hurt, saddened. M does not talk to J all day. C (me) does not know this, because C went to work at the exact time M got home from work. While C was at work, J texted C and asked if she wanted to watch The Shield later that night. C agrees joyfully. J later calls C while she is sitting outside with M1, M2 and M3. C tells J she hasnt finished her A&P yet, but will call when she does. M is suddenly PISSED. C not sure whats going on. M and C go inside, and sit down opposite eachother at their computers. C asks M, whats going on? are you mad at me? seriously! whats wrong? M responds coolly; "I dont want to talk about it" C asks a few more times. M gets annoyed and says she doesnt want to talk about it. C shrugs and finishes her A&P, texts J, and goes outside to join M2 and M3 for cig. J arrives to pick up C to watch Shield. Suddenly, C catches on to bizzarre awkwardness. J doesnt want to come inside and say hi to M, M walks out of house right as J enters gate, awkwardness ensues. J and C exit. C texts M, and says: "I dont mean to be upsetting you or making you angery. If you are pissed about this, I need you to talk to me about it". M does not deign to respond. C returns home later that night to find herself locked out of her own room. M and C do not speak for the next 18 hours or so, until this afternoon. M was outside reading, C goes outside and lights a cig. C asks M if she wants to talk. M says no. C stares at M until M puts down her book. The following conversation occurs between 4pm and 5pm.
M- Why do you think I'm mad at you.
C- (thinks: why dont you tell me. why the fuck are you pulling this mom/phsyc shit on me) Well, I presume you are upset because I went over to watch the shield last night with J, I didnt know he hadn't talked to you about it first, and I can see you taking that as a bad friend move.
M-You have part of it. I am mad at you because you were flirting with Jimmy when he called you last night.
C-wtf. no I wasn't
M-I dont expect you to admit it, but you know you did. I dont expect this conversation to go anywhere, or for anything to get solved
C-well I didnt and havent flirted with J.
*long pause*
C-so we';re just going to live in awkward silence?
M-I dont mind not talking to you. And if you wont admit that you flirted with Jimmy, you better get used to it.
*long silence*
*aiden comes out*
C-Dont lock me out of the bedroom again. Please.
M-You've slept on the couch before, its not like its a big deal.
*very long silence*
M-And even apart from last night, I've been going through a lot this summer, and even though I haven't been talking to you about any of it, you've been insensitive to me all summer
*M2 comes home from work, C goes inside*

So, apparently Mary and I are in a huge fight. Like, Huge fight. huge. I'm not mad at her at all, I KNOW that she has been in some bizarre emotional place for the majority of the summer, and especially the last week, and I know it has to do with Jer and Jimmy, and I also know that I didnt flirt with J on the phone, M2 and M3 agree, and I know that she is acting like a paranoid ex-girlfriend....except SHE"s the one who wanted to go back to square one with J, and she's the one who wont talk to me about it. I understand that she hasnt talked to me about whats been going on with her all summer, because I understand that when you are an emotional wreck, you dont really have anything to say or want to talk about it. I dont hold it against her, I dont hold anything against her. Whatever. I am annoyed by this whole thing, this massive drama. Mary is not acting like herself, and hasnt this whole fucking summer. her intense anger at me is irrational, as is her behavior and attitude towards J right now.

Im annoyed thinking about this anymore. i could go on a long as rant, but I wont, there is no point. Anyway. I finally have a ticket home, for July 30. I used mom's credit card to buy it, because i was sick of her bullshit excuses as to why she still hadnt even looked for one. I dont think mom realizes she bought it...I think she thinks her little plan worked and M&M ended up paying for it. Anyway, I get into Dulles at 10:30pm, and both Mom and Dad have told me to make sure that Francis brings me straight home. "you have the whole drive from Dulles to Rodeny ave sweetie, how could you possibly need more time together than that?" I have this feeling things at home are BIZFUCKINGZARE, and mom and dad are going to try to treat me like a fucking child again. I am not at all looking forward to that shit. its going to hell. But i am SO ready to have my own personal space again, and have some freedom.

Michael has a point. Estrogen is a bizzare, strong hormone. I know I'm full of it too, but sometimes I wish I was just a guy, and didnt have to deal with and/or be in the middle of irrational drama fights like this (and like I had with Jacky last semester)

I miss my sister, and I love her, and I would love it if she posted a blog about whats going on with her, and where she is emotionally.